Thursday, November 6, 2003
03:07 p.m.
Dreams...

Some of them are weird... and most I don't remember. But I've had one that I remember as if it had been real and taken place yesterday.

My family (mom, sister, Dave, Nick, and I) all moved to Japan... I don't recall where we moved to, but our house was on a cozy little street and the neighbors were quite friendly. And I'm not quite sure why... but it seemed I was dressed as a Gothic Lolita. I'll admit that I'm into the style, but I don't have the time or money to make the beautiful attire most of them wear. Anyway... One day, after tiring of reading, I felt an odd presence and decided to look out of my winndow and saw a beautiul Gothic Lolita girl standing in the middle of the street and looking up at me. She looked to be around my age... and her glistening ebony hair was pulled into two pigtails that hung on each side of her head and was then curled multiple times and adorned with black, white, and navy ribbons that were tied into bows and their tails left to hang with the angelic curls. She was wearing a black dress that cut off mid-thigh and had small sleeves that hung off the shoulders. The dress itself was decorated with ribbons that matched those in her hair and fluffed out on the bottom by means of a slip and a bit of taffeta and she wore platform-heeled black mary-janes and black stockings. Her eyes were a soft shade of blue (fom contacts, I'm guessing) and around them on the lids was black and blue eyeshadow and eyeliner. Her lips were painted black and I could tell her skin was naturally pale, much like my own was, with a rose tint to her cheeks. She was absolutely gorgeous. The next thing I knew I was running down the stairs and out of the house to greet her.

Then it skipped to a new day -- and it must have been weeks after the first meeting because everything was unpacked and we had come to be quite comfortable. Mom came up to me and told me that because T couldn't finish her report I was supposed to finish it... I told her I wouldn't... and she completely flipped out. She was yelling and screaming and pulling my hair and T and Nick had to hold her back.

I ran for the door and ran out of the house, nearly tripping over my own feet, and stumbled into the arms of this still nameless girl. She and I ran off to a club we had obviously been to before. It was one story high and had a balcony inside it, and winding stairs leading up to it from the underground level of the building. It was illuminated with various colourful lights and, as usual, it was crowded with girls and boys (some dressed as my friend, some in regular street-clothes) that were generally having a good time. But my friend and I spend all our time together by ourselves.

It was quite obvious that the two of us were good friends, perhaps even more, but the entire time I spent with her I felt extremely happy... She was always smiling so cheerfully and her voice was as clear as a silver bell, yet as soft as a kitten's fur. Her eyes were always bright and shimmering, her pale skin contrasting heavily against the dark hair and make-up... but it seemed to make her glow.

About an hour or so after sunset (I'd been out of the house for the entire day), the two of us left the near-empty club (which is quite weird that it was empty... but it ties in to this... thing...), hand in hand, and headed for a park. The streets were empty -- not a car in sight, and the streetlamps were flickering, but we paid no mind to them.

I don't remember us entering the park... or what we did in the park, but I remember ending up accross the street from the club on on way back, she and I hand in hand (I had forgotten something and needed to get it, lest my mom kick my arse even more than she had planned to). Her eyes got wide and she turned to look at me before she began to whisper "do you see it?! Do you?!" Of course I didn't see anything, so she and I proceeded to walk towards and then enter the now completely empty club.

Now, there's only one way to enter the building... and that's if you go down the flight of stairs leading under the sidewalk and enter through the main door... So after we had entered the building and she nodded her head towards her left (where the stage was) I saw what it was she had been referring to.

...There was a young girl, another Gothic Lolita, hovering over the stage. She was slightly transparent and seemed to me to be nothing more than a harmless apparition, so I had no clue why this friend of mine was attempting to get me to move away and go up the stairs to exit the building. It was then that the apparition turned around and her black eyes stared at me, a somewhat distressed expression on her face. A chill ran through my spine as she stared seemingly into my soul and I was suddenly hit by waves of all emotions: sadness, anger, fear, love, hate... Everything. It felt as if I was being forced out of my body.

Then I saw a vision, so to speak, of the apparition (though in the vision she had clearly been alive) at the club. She was standing on the the balcony and chatting with her friends, her hair tied up nicely into a pigtail and decorated with black ribbons and breathtaking curls. She was tapping her platform shoed right foot against the floor of the balcony as her tiny gloved hand straightened the black velvet material of her puffed out short dress. She was smiling a rather angelic smile, though the black make-up and lipstick had made her look somewhat less innocent, but soon that smile disappeared as someone pushed her over the edge of the balcony, her drink falling to the floor as she fell to her death...

Right in the spot I was standing.

I snapped back into reality, though the feeling of being thrown from my body was still very much present. I could smell something... It wasn't sweet... It smelled nothing like the soft roses that had been placed on the tables earlier. It smelled like...

I looked down at my feet to find a puddle of blood rising out of the floor. I was absolutely horrified.

There was a deafening shriek that ended the eerie silence and I soon found myself tripping up the stairs as this friend of mine proceeded to drag me along with her, racing away from this now very angry ghost (who had managed to do everything but catch me in her deadly grasp). We made it out of the club, though we continued running until we reached her house. I spent the night there with her, both of us curled up in each others arms as if we were protecting each other.

I hadn't gotten much sleep that night, and neither did she. I was too afraid I'd turn to see the ghost stairing at me with those coal-black, soulless eyes of hers... waiting to do what it was she had wanted to do to us when we saw her at the club.

...My friend walked me home the next morning and I was surprised to see that my mother wasn't still mad at me; she'd calmed down and even made cookies. So then this friend of mine turned to look at me with those large beautiful eyes of hers and I smiled, silently thanking her for the help she had given me the night before. We spent several seconds looking at each other like this...

And then I woke up.


Odd dream, eh? I never even knew the name of the girl... or why I felt a strong attraction to her, but she's been in my head all day and I can't seem to forget her cheery smile and angelic face. So I sketched her... as I saw her in my dream.

The dream was also entirely in Japanese, though I'm not really sure how it's possible. My Japanese skills suck... I can only form simple sentences and in this dream I was having conversations with this girl about everything imaginable and I understood everything everyone was saying...

Quite odd.

Friday, October 31, 2003
05:58 p.m.
...

I went to scool all dressed up as a Lady-in-Waiting during the Renaissance period. Long dress... high-heeled witchy loonking boots... 8 hours of school... I ended up with a migraine. But it was worth it. When Tom saw me in the morning I could have sworn he was so close to burtsing out into a fit of giggles while blushing I almost wanted to wring his neck. So then I came home and took Nick out trick-or-treat'ing after I took a nap.

My heaaaad... it huuuurts...

And my feeeet... oooowwww...

Happy Halloween, people.

Friday, October 24, 2003
06:12 p.m.
=]

HI!!!

Wednesday, October 1, 2003
08:32 a.m.
Yay.

Alright, backtrack a few days, please!

Uncle J.R. found a kitten by the road. To make a long story short, it's about 8 weeks old, tanish in color, and if it wasn't for me insisting on taking it to the vet it probably would have died. Oh, and his name is Buddy. Anyway, he has to get meds 2 times a day for 10 days and he loves me many bunches of oats.

Mo asked me to go to the Ren Faire with him. So I am. Today he asked me to Homecoming. So... um. I don't know. Charchar made a good point today after lunch, though... He brought the Ren Faire thing up and asked if I had feelings for Mo, I told him I still liked Tom and he said "where are you going to get with him?" ...and yeah, I was reminded once again that I have not and will not ever "get anywhere" with Tom.

T's probably going to go to Homecoming with Jello, so I suppose I might as well go with Mo. I just... I don't know. I don't like to dance, I'd much rather go out to eat Chinese or something... maybe go to a decent Japanese place or go see a movie... I just... don't like dancing.

And everyone eats all my cookies. ;-;

Thursday, September 25, 2003
03:07 p.m.
Ugh... wtf...

It's been a while since I've ranted in here, but earlier I was ranting to Jen-chan about a certain someone whose name happened to be Tom and she told me ranting should be saved for my journal.

So yay.

I missed Tom over the summer, but now that we're back in school I remembered why I told myself that I wouldn't care about him anymore. Why is that? Because Tom... is... well, being Tom. Confusing? I guess. ...Not to me...

I guess he likes making me think he hates me. Every day at the end of art class I grab a hold of the handle on his bookbag and tag along behind him (unless he's smart and gets away from me). Why do I do this? Because he tries to get me off the handle. Today he actually took his bookbag off (extra points for him, the little devil). I'm waiting for him to tell me how much he hates when I do that and how much he actually hates me.

Yes, folks, you heard right! I'm acually anticipating the time my crush tells me something to the effect of "Alicia, I hate you. You should die and live all of eternity condemned to the deepest and darkest depths of the fiery pit of Hell as if you were the Damned Soul himself." I know. I must be... psychotic or something to actually be anticipating the time he says that, but unless he becomes vocal about his apparent hatred towards me I fear I'll be left simply assuming what it is he's thinking and no, that's not very fun.

He doesn't talk to me online anymore. It's a pity, really, because I loved talking to him online (because he never talked to me in school... which means now he never talks to me). I don't think I want his screen-name, and I'm not asking him for it. I'm just assuming he doesn't ever want to talk to me ever again for some strange, unknown, and probably stupid reason.

It's okay.

I really don't mind.

I just wish he'd tell me he hated me and get it the fuck over with already -- spare us both the time, effort, and agonizing stupidity.

Also, it's funny how I have a borderline personality and how my handwriting changes with my moods so my handwriting changes in the middle of words. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

o_O;

Monday, September 22, 2003
03:36 p.m.
HAHAHA

I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE.

And, as of September 20th, I'm an official step-daughter. Kind of scary, but my mom's wedding was super-cool, I guess.

Details later, I'm braindead. AHAHAHAHAHA.

p.s. Tom says ShinHwa sucks. He's a VERY confused Korean-who-doesn't-like-Koreans (he said so himself! The nerve of some people!) so his opinion on the subject doesn't count. Har.

Saturday, September 6, 2003
10:28 p.m.
Lalala

I'm almost done with Miyavi bear. Finally. I can finish him tomorrow if I want to... but either way I need to get him done and sent out before next weekend.

Today was okay, I guess... we did some shoping, went to go pay for my mom's wedding cake, and we all did our chores today. i had to do the kitchen. Doing the dishes is included in the kitchen so I did a lot of work. I cleaned the dishes, the counters, the table, the dog dishes, then swept and mopped the floor. Now I have to put everything back. =(

I wanna go to bed.

Tuesday, September 2, 2003
08:29 p.m.
DSFKJSHDFL KAS

T ATE MY BIG MAC. OMG WHAT A WHORE.

In other news, I'm going to Japan for... whatever! lol! I MUST go to Disney Sea or whatever it's called... and Tokyo... I MUST go to Tokyo on sundays. Sundays = COSPLAYER OMGWTFBBQ.

o_O;;

And wtf? How do you make long sentences in Japanese? I mean, I can make short ones like "Watashi no namae wa Alicia desu" but I dunno how to say things like "My name is Alicia and I'm 17 years old and from America" (for example).

I DO have "Learn Japanese Now!"... I just need to find the box and install it... is it really good, though?

Tuesday, September 2, 2003
04:16 p.m.
WEEE!

Made Jen a new layout so you had all better go look at it. >P!!

Anyway, today I realized how fast my school day goes. In the morning I dropped by Shriners to drop off the picture I wasn't able to mat over the weekend (we have a matter at hom -- a complicated one, and I cut myself 5 billion times trying to figure out how to work it. I was bleeding everywhere), the mat board I wanted to use (it's a pastel blue color) and my took-box-like thing for all the stuff she's gonna be giving us. Then I went to homeroom... then in Psychology nothing happened... and FAST FORWARD TO FOURTH PERIOD (Art 3) when I found out Tom isn't moving anymore. wtf? Anyway, I was pretty happy about that. Then I had a study hall, lunch, another study hall (on days 2 and 4 I go to Shriners for the study hall)... and math was boring as usual. But this kid behind me... omfg... HE BREATHES LIKE HE'S GIVING BIRTH. I could picture it in class... "That's right! Push harder! 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 -- I SEE A HEAD!!"

WTF.

Tomorrow I have gym and GUESS WHAT?! I have no sneakers or gym uniform because I left all that stuff there last year expecting to have it there when I got back (we have the same lockers every year we're in HS, I guess...). Well, whatever. If they got rid of my uniform then it's their fault -- but I know I'll get punished for it. YAY.

Saturday, August 30, 2003
06:02 p.m.
Florida.

A whole bunch of us seniors want to go to Florida for our senior class trip -- which is cool because if we raise the money through fundraisers and such, then we can go. Fundraisers aren't a big deal, but then there's the other thing tied in with it... the school play. It's not really the school play, it's the senior play but the school isn't allowed to say that because everyone in the highschool can get a part in it, but the profits go towards the seniors and our class trip.

Our senior class representative (Bigelow) said that she wants us seniors to try out for the school play or the school board may decide the profits should go to the entire school. I mean, why give the seniors the money if they aren't doing anything, right? Well, the principal was stupid and decided the play should be performed in NOVEMBER (which is a good number of months BEFORE it was done last year and even then it was hard to get it done) which gives everyone two months to get the play done and auditions are on Tuesday. Naturally, my mom wants me to try out for the play.

I love acting, but I've never... been in a school play before. Sure, I've acted in front of a class or two as Romeo, Juliet, the nurse, and some others from Romeo and Juliet but that was it. lol. x_X

I REALLY want to go to Florida, though.

So you had all better wish me luck for the auditions. unless it's a stupid play because if it is I'm not trying out. It would be nice if it was something like Romeo and Juliet but I think it's supposed to be all original. o o;

Friday, August 29, 2003
09:46 p.m.
=D

TOO LAZY TO FIX ANY SPELLING ERRORS THAT MAY OCCUR

Jesse loves me. My life is complete. xD Wee! There should be a Jesse clan on Soompi cause I'd join. Jesse is teh bombz0rz. o_O;

Haven't made an entry for a few days. Nothing big has really happened so.. whatever.

Apparently in Psychology we'll be talking about telekinesis, telepathy, and stuff like that so I already know I'll love this class. Political Sci. Econ. wont be that big of a deal because it's so easy to get Bigelow off topic. On Thrusday she spent the entire class period talking about Martin Luther King's "I Have a Dream Speach" -- and she even read the entire thing from the book because some kid was interested in what it was. English is cool, too, because my teacher kicks ass and I'm in class with Kes and Steph and them. Art is charming, as always, and I don't feel so alone now that I'm sitting with CharChar, Tom, and Wes...

But Tom is moving. The look I gave him when I was hit with that reality when Shriner brought it up must have been quite a site, as it was probably one of the saddest and most confused looks I've ever gave anyone. And he looked right back at me. I dunno... well... whatever. This is why Ali doesn't like liking people.

Anyway, I started Gym on thursday cause it was day 3 but it sucks because I have gym witht hat stupid asshole dickhead who likes me. He was okay last year, but now he's an arrogant, hormone driven, disrespecting moron who should be castrated. After that I had to go to my locker to get my lunch (YES! I PACK MY LUNCH NOW! WOO!) and I met up with Kes, Chen and them on the way down to the Caf. Chen said she'll fix the Frodo magnet she had in her locker and give it to me cause I love Frodo. =D I have a lot in common with all these girls and I guess I didn't realize it until I took the time to sit and talk with them. I mean, I already knew I had stuff in common with Chen but it turns out the whole group of seven or so girls is into a bunch of the same stuff as I am (LOTR, "Pirates of the Caribbean," the Ren. Faire, and so on) so I'm all happy about that.

The rest of the day was boring. Just study halls and math... Rawr.

Anyway! My Miyavi "Girls, Be Ambitious" teddy bear is so adorable so far, but giving him hair is turning out to be a pain. I have to finish his hair tomorrow, stuff him, sew him up in the back, and make his clothes... and then I have to finish the picture I'm drawing of the real Miyavi then I have to send them out sometime next week. Miyavi will get his one-of-a-kind "Girls, Be Ambitious" teddy bear and his super cool drawing from me and he will love it cause he loves his fans and what they do for him. ^_^

Mom, Dave, and Rosie are gone for the weekend... up to Towanda. Nick is at his mom's house, so T and I are alone for ... four or so days. But we can't go anywhere. We have to stay in the house and on the computers and stuff cause that's what mom said to do.

Dunno if I'm going to continue two of my three fics on Soompi. TeP isn't liked much because of the lack of Korean singers and WHAT?! Why me? Why US?! just may be stretching it a bit too far... Because I don't even know what that fic's about, other than in the prologue I got into an arguement with the characters. The first chapter is cool, though, and at least I like the fic, right? But there's no use in posting a fic on a forum and having no one pay attention to it. And it's not that I'm bad at writing, because I'm not -- I'm one of the best in the states -- it's just that maybe... I don't know. Regardless, Prism is liked a lot and has a few dedicated readers (which I'm happy about) so that fic's going to continue to be updated as I come up with more chapters.

My plan for when I graduate school: Go back to Image Modeling Center and take acting classes instead of Modeling classes, get in a few commercials, get in a movie, become famous, and if The Halfblood Chronicles is ever turned into a movie, get the lead as LaShana and become even more famous, then get married to a gay man cause a gay man is the best type of man to get married to. They say your sex life declines after getting married, so if you're married to a gay man you don't have to worry about sex. Plus, you can both check out the hot guys and do your own thing. Maybe even adopt a pretty little kid and stuff.

Mmmm... Sounds like a good plan to me. =D

Tuesday, August 26, 2003
01:29 p.m.
School...

Schedule (what a wierd word):
Psychology, days 1->6, room 215 - A.Fulmer.
Pol. Sci./Econ., days 1->6, room 223 - Bigelow.
Aca. English, days 1->6, room 121 - D. Lesher.
Art 3, days 1->6, room A1 - Shriner.
Study Hall, days 1,2,4,6, room 103
Gym 11/12, days 3,5, GYM - C. Lykens
Lunch B, days 1->6, CAF
Study Hall, days 1->6, room 101
Applied Math 3, days 1->6, room 239 - M. Ulrich.
Applied Math 4, days 1->6, room 232 - Palopoli.

Yes, folks, TWO math classes. I don't know how I'm supposed to pass App. Math 4 when I need to know what's in App. Math 3 and I haven't even taken it yet. Way to go, D.B. for making my life hell!

Regardless, I'm pretty happy with my schedule. Fulmer seems like a really nice teacher (maybe too talkative, but that's okay...) but Bigelow... She mentioned that the senior graduation project has to do with the stock market. I was told by the councelors that you could pick anything and write an essay on it or something like that so I was all happy and stuff, now I find out I have to do something on the stock market. I'm not good at math, I don't like the stock market, and Bigelow can go fuck a pig because if she refuses to let me do something on my own I'll... I dunno. Lemme think about it.

Lesheeeeerrrrr... seems pretty cool. That is all. Shriner! As much as she pisses me off, she's still my favorite teacher in the school. Next we have... um... Lykens. I had her last year for Traffic Safety. I liked her then. I'll hate her now because she's my gym teacher and I hate gym. Ulrich reminds me of a whale. A beached whale who likes math and loves making little seniors quake in fear. Palopoli would probably be cool if kids weren't pissing her off every five seconds.

Lunch is fucking PACKED. 315+ students in a little cafeteria is not cool. We barely have the time to get through the lunch line. So... I don't eat. =D -_-

I'm sick of writing. I have stuff I need to work on.

Friday, August 22, 2003
10:01 a.m.
AHHHHH.

I GOT AN E-MAIL FROM MIYAVI (cause I'm in the Melutomo thinger) AND I DUNNO WHAT IT SAYS. Something about Shoxx magazine with him on it and... stuff... ;_;

雅-miyavi-軍曹より。

諸君、指令だ。
ただちに本屋さんに行って「しよっくす」とか呼ばれている音楽専門雑誌（なにやら表紙が、素敵な男の子の号、との事）それらを片っ端から本棚の前面に並べてくる事。
そしてそれが終わったら「鮮烈なヴィジュアル、そして、ハードショック．．．」と、そこにいるはずの店員さんに伝えてくれ。その店員の暗号ネームは「ぽっくん」だ。
Alicia、宜しく頼む。

Wednesday, August 20, 2003
08:55 p.m.
LALALA

I started my realistic Miyavi picture today. I finally figured out how to do it... Because Miyavi's kind of hard to draw and I'm used to doing all my realistic drawings in pencil and shade it like that but I don't get a really nice effect like that and for Miyavi drawing him that way was not working. I threw away around 10 pieces of pretty good paper because it took me until today to figure out I had to draw him a different way. So I came upon this kick-ass picture of him and it's pretty colorful so I said to myself "okay, Ali, here's this kickass picture of Miyavi in front of you. Now, you can draw him the hard way or try something new." So I tried something new... Uh, I did a rough sketch in very light pencil and got out all my Prisma Color Pencils (which I need more of) and, while looking off the picture, used the colors and shaded and such while erasing the pencil... Anyway, it looks a lot like him and it looks really, really cool. I don't have much done yet, but I really love how this way of drawing/coloring really makes the picture stand out and such.

Miyabi (my plant, remember?) is almost dead. Mom was stupid and put him in the livingroom window and spider mites got him again so I had to take him outside, hose him down, and leave him out there. I'm really hoping he gets better, you know, because I've had him for so long...

Adam's having a pool party tomorrow and he called and invited us so I'm all "YAY!" Besides, he has my X movie. I need my X movie. I suppose I can pu up with another day of Adam hitting on me and such. It's not that bad. Lol. ...o_O;

Erm, yeah.. so, that's it for today. It's been rather uneventful...

Tuesday, August 19, 2003
09:14 p.m.
Omigod... -_-

There's no way in hell I'll be able to enter TokyoPop's Manga competition this year because, um, I'm not even halfway done with my manga. Sure, if I wanted to could finish it but I really have to get this stuff for Miyavi done. The Miyavi thing is kind of once-in-a-lifetime whereas TokyoPop's Manga competition is every year. lolz0rz.

Trust me when I say Miyavi is hard to draw. So I figure I'd do a realistic picture and one of a bunch of anime'ish Miyavi's hanging out and having a good time. lol. o_O; Weird, I know, but he'll like it because he's so eccentric... LIKE ME! ^_^ Kind of... I can't wait until after the wedding next month cause then I get to cut my hair like his in the "Girls, be Ambitious" video. *-*

Anyway, I'm pissed off at my dentis person in charge of my braces because he says they're ready to come off but my molars are going into crossbite so he wants to fix those first. WTF I want this metal OFF MY TEETH, YOU FUCKER. LKH LH LKHSGSKGJHAKSDH KDHLhal khflhlFH KGH!!!!

Anyway, good news for my eyes... ^_^ They haven't changed enough for my prescription for contacts to change. lol. YAY!

Erm, there's a Furry thing on TLC tonight... o_o; Furries... eh... Reminds me of Furcadia... omg.. Furries... o____o

Back to Miyavi. XD

Saturday, August 16, 2003
10:02 p.m.
Okie dokie

I think I figured out this comment thing. lol. HARDEDAR.

Anyway... today we went school shopping. Not at Old Mavy od Wet Seal or anything like that (because I refuse to spend an arm and a leg on a fucking shirt with a logo on it, for heavens sake...), but at... other places. Anyway, our first stop was Boscovs... which is expensive and the clothes there look like shit. I got two shirts. Our second stop was Wal-Mart. Which sucks major ass. My dad had gotten me a gift card there for my birthday (worth $25) so I figured I spend it on... a cheap shirt or something but Wal-Mart has shitty clothes so I bought the Special Edition version of The Fellowship of the Ring (mom gave me the extra $5 or so I needed for it) and then we left.

After Wal-Mart we went to the Coventry mall and had some kick-ass Chinese food... Then we went to Sears and they we having a jeans sale (Sears may hae sales, but even then the clothes are still fucking expensive. $30 per pair of jeans is NOT a sale) but I got a good four of so pairs of jeans... then we went to Suncoast and reserves a Special Edition version of The Two Towers. I'm gonna but the set that comes with the Gollum figure when I get a good $60+ but for now I have to settle for the $40, 4-disc set. lol.

Then we went home and I tried watching FotR but I was sick so I went to bed... then later we went out for ice cream at Dairy Queens. Um. And now I don't feel so well. At DQ mom said she shouldn't eat ice cream cause she's lactose intolerant now or some shit and I was like "o_O;" but I dunno. Maybe ice cream just makes some people sick? I don't get sick from drinking chocolate milk or eating cheese so it's not the dairy thing...

Well, whatever. Durr. =D

Thursday, August 14, 2003
07:07 p.m.
Uuuugh.

I have been sick all day. I don't know why. This morning I was really dizzy and collapsed onto the couch (I was lucky I didn't collapse onto the hardwood floor. Durr)... and I have noooo energy. T tried telling me it's because I mix medicines. wtf is that shit? I don't mix medicines, retard.

Mommom is pissed off because today is her birthday and no one said anything about it. She IMed me with "today was my birthday no one remembered.see its true for most people out of sight out of mind." K, Mommom, I'm sorry for being sick and away from the computer sleeping. Next time I'll remember to make you top priority.

Apparently there are speculation about Mr. Radcliff (the kid who played Harry Potter) being a candidate for the new live action Evangelion movie. WTF. But I don't think that will turn out well at all. The part of Shinji should be played by a Japanese boy ...though I really want to snag the role of Asuka. If I hopped into Acting classes at Image I bet if I tried hard enough I'd be able to. That is, of course, if they're not really casting 14 year olds for this movie. AHAHAHA. Cause I'd be about 20. ;_;... But I do look much younger so I suppose that's a plus. XD

I know, I know... silly Ali and her stupid ambitions...

Wednesday, August 13, 2003
08:03 p.m.
WOO!

New layout. ^_^ I left the quiz results out because they took up too much space. lol. DURR. And I have some other things to add but I've been working on this way too long so Iw ant to give it a break. Anyway, check out my mad skillz, yo. Oh yeaaaah.

Nagi and Omi are SOOOO HOT. *-*

Anyway, mom came home and fucking yelled at me because I turned the answering machine down because it was pissing me the fuck off. She knows I don't check messages when she's not home incase they're important. Anyway, she yelled at me because she supposedly called here four times asking me to get something. What, I'm supposed to hear here when I'm in my room, it's thundering, and the dogs are barking at everything? Yeah, okay. Whatever.

Wednesday, August 13, 2003
02:35 p.m.
Suckage

Pitas sucks sometimes. It really does. Trying to get all this HTML to work pisses me the fuck off. Especially when Internet Explorer's screen whatever it bigger than the AOL screen (for webpages and such) and I have to work on IE when doing my layouts because AOL doesn't like to update the page until 5 hours later. SOOOOOO when working on IE I always make it line up there but when I use AOHell it's all fucked up.

Yeah, kthnx. -_-

Wednesday, August 13, 2003
08:44 a.m.
Bleeeegh...

I went to bed relatively early yesterday night and woke up at around 1am because my head hurt so much. So I, being the girl who occasionally mixes medicines to try to get rid of her headaches, went downstairs and took two sinus pills and an Allegra and went back to bed. I did this once before when I had a headache and it knocked me out and basically did its job so this time was no different. I woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep but, hey, I didn't have a headache so I was all "=D" and happily did a bunch of stupid stuff for about half an hour before I went downstairs and washed my face and brushed my teeth (in attempt to get rid of the nasty taste in my mouth which is, unfortunately, what you get after mixing those pills) and then watched this really cool movie about some guy (who OMG LOOKS LIKE TONY AHN *drools*) in China who works with this foreigner to introduce 'moving film' to China. It was pretty good.

Anyway, so backtracking a while... Yesterday I saw the Weiss Kreuz OVA/OAV/whatever and damn.. you know, I was a little disappointed. Why? Because I had seen pictures from Verbrechen and Strafe of Omi all tied up in Yohji's sexy sting of doom and such and those pictures alone made me cry so I was thinking "gee, I'm going to cry at some point during this..." because even if they were just pretending to kill each other, the thought of the Weiss boys doing that brought tears to my eyes. Anyway, so then I'm watching Strafe and the part comes on and I'm starteing to get all teary eyed and then they play the WORST kind of music EVER during that scene which COMPLETELY ruined it for me! WTF. THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO PLAY SAD MUSIC TO MAKE US FANGIRLS START TO CRY AND GET ALL "OMI-KUUUUN!!!"...

dfkagds fhjagsdfkjahsgdfjkaesf!!!

Anyway, what made up for it was seeing Schuldich and Braddy-pie at the end. Schu makes me fangirly. So does Braddy-pie... but Schu... he's got that special something about him that makes me squee in delight whenever I see him. Too bad there was no Nagi, though. That pissed me off. You cant have no Nagi. Nagi has to be there. In fact, he has to be in Omi's room waiting in his bed for him to get home.

Speaking of Nagi and Omi... that's what my next layout is gonna be. Whee!!!

p.s. Do spiders shed? Cause like... the poisonous looking spider by my window whose black with white dots on the back of his abdomen kind of shed his front part. So, wtf is up with that? Do spiders normally do that or is it really an alien of some sort who looks (and eats) like a spider?

Dammit, I really have to find out wtf it is...

Tuesday, August 12, 2003
09:01 p.m.
Ugh...

Wont be able to see the meteor shower tonight. Too many clouds. I've got a headache anyway so I best be off to bed early.

Im gonna start on a new layout soon. It's either going to be of Shinya or the NagoxOmi picture I luff so much and PROVES THEY'RE AN ACTUAL COUPLE NAGIXOMI FOREVER!!!!!! Erm...

Monday, August 11, 2003
09:21 p.m.
Xanga...

XANGA SUCKS WHALE BALLS.

Monday, August 11, 2003
01:23 p.m.
B)

Durr. I need to get Miyu something. And SHinya, too. I don't just want to send Shinya a boring letter. I don't know how good his english is. Maybe I'll buy Miyu a toy or a little sweater or something. Hey, I got a Walmart card... why not use it?

For anyone who hasn't hear EllDorado's "Circus" (Sakasu) I demand you to DOWNLOAD IT RIGHT NOW.

Sorry, no long update today. I r teh boredz0rz. Or something. o_O;

Saturday, August 9, 2003
09:27 p.m.
Hmm...

People like mah fanficz0rz. OMGZ0RZ.

...Eh... I wanna go see "Pirates of the Caribbean" again. OMG. OMG ORLANDO AND JOHNNY WERE SO HOT. I wanted to get all fangirly whenever they showed up on the screen then I realized that would be almost the WHOLE movie so I was like "....Durr...."

kthnx.

Also, I wonder if FUmi is okay... ;_;

I DUN WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL. ;-; ;-; ;-;

Wednesday, August 6, 2003
02:02 p.m.
WEEEEE

Well, I start school soon. It'll be my last year so I'm all... kind of thinking it's going to suck. Moreso because of this whole shitty graduation and graduation project thinger. Whatever.

So Otakon is this weekend... and I'm obviously not going. One because T wont be here and two because... well, my mom wont fucking take me even for a day. So I miss out on seeing T.M. Revolution. I swear I'm going to go to Otakon next year, though, and I want to go to Yaoi-con, too but that's in California. o_o;

I want to be a Battle Royale girl for Halloween this year... because I'm in the whole BR phase right now and I'll sort of need a costume for T's party. So I need to find some stuff. I'm guessing it wont be that hard to find most of the stuff but, eh... getting a collar will be the hard part. If I don't find a collar then, yeah, basically even if I do have everything else I still can't be a BR girl. Without the collar... the whole costume would be nothing. ;-;

So... I'm currently reading the BR novel (which is around 616 pages) and I'm hoping to get it done by the end of this month but there are other things I have to get done. I was supposed to enter TokyoPop's Rising Stars of Manga contest and... I'm not even close to finishing this manga of mine. I'm not even done with page three and it has to be 15 - 20 pages long and be postmarked by September 1st or it doesn't count. Maybe I'll wait until next year, you know? So I have a whole year to finish it... or something.

Anyway, T and I figured we'd go for our driving permits at the same time. We thought it would be easier so we'll see how that goes.

I was reading through some IM logs today... Damn, I miss having those kinds of conversations with those people. ;-;

Thursday, July 31, 2003
10:29 p.m.
=D

Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale Battle Royale

I GOT MY BATTLE ROYALE DVDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THE NOVEL!!! OMGWTFBBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, July 24, 2003
01:38 p.m.
LKSGDLFKHASD!!

(I had to post this in my Xanga and Pita cause I'm SO FRIGGEN HAPPY. LADHFKSD!!!) OH MY GOD. Fumi's package just came in today... wtf... that boy... omg... He sent me a GORGEOUS red and gold Chinese dress and it fits me perfectly. Oh gods... wow... it's just... amazing... Not only that, but he sent me an Afro Ken clock (which is one of the cutest things I've ever seen), a Danbool-kun toy with a Neko-pan plushie in his head (for those of you who don't know, Danbool-kun is like a cardboard box headed character who bakes and keeps random things like birds in his head -- he baked Neko-pan which is cat bread... Or, like, bread with a cat face and ears... it's so cute!), a box of chocolate pocky, a bag of candy that had penguins on it, and a small box of candy.

Oi, wow... he just... WOW. I am completely blown away. I have never gotten anything like this. Ever -- especially from a boy. Just... wow. My penpals are the best.

Wednesday, July 23, 2003
04:18 p.m.
AHAHA

Fucking assholes. wtf. Why does my mom yell at me when I go outside during thunderstorms and such? If the storms don't make me fucking sick with headaches then I want to be outside when they fucking et here, you stupid bitch. A little rain (and a cold, possibly) doesn't hurt anyone. sla kfhlkajs hdfkahsd!!

And ROFLOMFGWTFBBQ a tornado touched down a few miles away from here like... a few days ago during the first storm. rofl. lol. Stupid fuckers. I was outside then, too. omfg. The sky was so damn dark. O_o;

Anyway, I DLed MOST of the songs on FlytotheSky's super new and super cool 4th album... it's basically just a bunch of ballads so I was like "OMFGWTF I LOVE YOU GUYS" and I was all happy... and stuff... I love ballads and while I'm not such a huge fan of them anymore, all the ballads on this CD are fucking fabulous. So I'm going to buy the album when I get enough money.

Fuck. I miss Miroku. Why the hell are all my friends dying...? .-.

Friday, July 18, 2003
01:05 a.m.
Ugh...

I'm trying to be happy, I really am... but all the happiness I try to keep hold of just winds up fading away after a little while. It's not real happiness... just a mask. But at least people don't ask questions.

Fumi's package should be getting here soon... I can't wait. He told me he is wishing for the best for Miro-kun. It's sad to think it might be to late... but I know Fumi wants me to be happy. And Miro-kun wants me to be happy. Fumi reminds me of Miro-kun on he's not good with English and I don't know him as well as I Miro-kun...

As of right now, Mitch is scaring the hell out of me. I have nothing against being penpals with people in Japan but when some 28 year old guy from Japan asks you to marry him... I'd start questioning things. He knows I'm 17. He kept saying how he wanted to move back to LA and live there forever and how... god... he needed to marry an American girl, too. wtf. No. I'm sorry, but if you think my personality is great and that I'm sweet it doesn't give you the reson to say you wish you were my boyfriend or you wish that we could go to some Tokyo amusement park together. Nor does it give you the right to ask me to marry you.

God. My life is so fucked up right now.

Wednesday, July 16, 2003
04:10 p.m.
Miro-kun...

Aishi'teru yo. ;_; I would give anythig to be able to talk to you again. It can't be true... I'll keep looking for you, Miro-kun. Suki dai yo. Anata wa watashi no tenshi.

Monday, July 14, 2003
03:30 p.m.
Hmmm...

All of Jay Chou's songs sound the same to me. I like the guy, I really do, and I like his voice... But all of his songs sound the same. It gets old after a while.

Regardless, now that I've seen Battle Royale I'm even more anxious to see the sequal currently running in Japan. BR is by far one of the best movies I have seen. Ever. So now that scratches one Japanese horror film off my list...
Jisatsu Sakuru/Suicide Circle
Ju-On and Ju-On 2
The Ring Cycle
Dark Water
Kourei
Whispering Corridors
The Eye
Cure
Kairo/Pulse
Uzumaki
Wild Zero
Pretty nice list, eh? I started downloading Ringu and with any luck I'll have it in about 2 years. -_-; Anyway, most of the movies I can get off e-bay so it's no big deal whether or not I find some place to download them (because I know more than half you can't find on things like Kazaa or WinMX -- believe me, I know... I've tried). Regardless, my recent struggle to find and download My Sassy Girl with English subtitles had ended fruitless -- and though I was downloading (and have downloaded) My Sassy Girl, much to my disappointment I found out it had Japanese subtites. So that doesn't help me with anything.

This is enough for now, Jenna should be coming over soon.

Thursday, July 10, 2003
02:04 p.m.
Ugh.

I've got a cold. It sucks. Majorly. Also, I got this new medicine for my migraines. I forget what it's called but... I take one pill when I start to get the headache and if I still have the headache two hours later then I take a second pill but I can only take two pills within 24 hours. I don't know why, but whatever. They work really well, though.

I want to talk to Tom. I've been trying not to think about him but it seems to... not work. I don't get what my problem is... But Charchar seems to like the idea of telling me to not be so much of a chicken when it comes to him. I wonder if Tom does really like me, because Charchar said he's never known of Tom liking a girl before.

On an odder note, Fumi is sending me things through mail. =D A Nekopan thing and a Chinese dress. wtf. The Nekopan thing I expected, but he bought a Chinese dress for me, too?! He said it was cheap. He's sending other things as well but I have no clue what they are. I can't wait to get them, though I know it will be a while. A few weeks at the least. He's such a sweetheart.

I want to see that new pirate movie... It looks so good. Plus, Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom in the same movie is bound to leave me all fangirly. It's been so long since I got out of this house, I think it's time I actually did. But I just have to wait for this cold to go away.

...I don't know what happened to Meggie. I'm guessing she got a new screen name or something... or... stuff. Whatever. I miss talking to her. She just seems so into this other girl... I kind of feel like we lost all the closeness we used to have. I mean, she and I have been friends for a while now... so she means a lot to me. I miss talking to her every day... Kind of like the way I miss talking to Tom or even just seeing him almost every day.

I've got serious problems...

Friday, July 4, 2003
11:45 a.m.
=D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GACKT-SAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, June 29, 2003
06:38 p.m.
Korean Peace Festival

I wrote about it in my Xanga. :P

Read and enjoy

I'm too lazy to type it all up again. lmao.

Wednesday, June 25, 2003
07:43 a.m.
God.

Charchar makes me feel like bashing my head in with a hammer. The end. P.S. I miss Jen.

Sunday, June 22, 2003
08:14 p.m.
Weeee...

DLed BitTorrent today. It's pretty cool, actually, though I haven't quite gotten the hang of it yet.

I talked to Fumi yesterday night about my Kimono (I sent him a picture of it, too) and he said it's really beautiful. ^_^ I told him that I didn't have an obi and he said if I ever got to Japan and I still didn't have one that he'd buy one for me. o_o; He also invited me to go to a hot spring with him when I got to Japan, too. lol. We'll see what happens. He's such a sweety, though.

I can't believe Steve's gonna try to get me Japanese horror movies for my B-day. :D That is so cool. ^_^ I'm not really supposed to get anything this year because I'm only turning 17, but I guess I'm special enough to get things from some of my friends. ^_^

Ah, I need to get the Gravitation OAV/OVAs. u_u; I've seen some on e-bay (as well as a first press edition of one of hide-sama's CDs *-*...) but they're so expensive. :( I also need to get back into RPing. I mean really RPing... like Furuba stuff. Because I miss it.

Thursday, June 19, 2003
06:11 p.m.
o.o

Have I ever told anyone how much I love this song? It's absolutely beautiful.

I haven't talked to my mom in three days so far. I think it's pissing her off. And I can't believe she thinks I finshed that picture of "hers" just so I could get on her good side! ROFLMFAO!!! That's the most retarded thing I've ever heard! She said that she wasn't going to kiss my ass so I'd give it to her. ROFL. If it was hers then I would have given it to her. If she wants to take something that was supposed to be mine and give it away then I'm free to take something that was supposed to be hers and give it away to someone else, as well.

If she wants to betray me, then whatever. I don't care if the picture was supposed to be hers. She can fucking wait until I get over her being a smart-assed moron with no point in life other than to make my life horrible.

Charchar asked for Tom's screen name... so I gave the one I had to him. I don't know why he wants it -- Tom never ever gets on anymore. And if he does he never stays on long enough to even think of starting a conversation up with him. I've come to the conclusion that he just hates talking to me now. I don't know why... and it makes me feel like hell...

Fumi said when he comes over to the U.S (after he graduates from school and after he gets enough money), he wants me to be his guide. He's also never been to Mt. Fuji. @_@; But I forgive him... ^_^ Speaking of guiding Japanese people, I suppose I had better learn the language. o_O!!!

Okay, "I know... but..." is on... and I'm getting upset. x_x This song is so beautiful... ;-;

Wednesday, June 18, 2003
05:12 p.m.
Grr.

I knew as soon as I woke up this morning that I'd get a headache today... and -- lo and behold! I've got a headache.

So I'm going to take a long shower and then ... try to go to bed. rofl. See, because my mother wont buy NyQuil anymore because she thinks I drink it like it was water or something. She thinks I'm addicted to it. It doesn't have enough Alcohol in it to get you addicted or even drunk unless you drink the entire bottle and then some. And I only take NyQuil when I have Migraines. That's the only time. But whatever. I can't do anything to make her change her mind about not getting any.

She's so stupid. rofl.

Wednesday, June 18, 2003
11:03 a.m.
Ugh.

Too pissed to change some of the colors right now. x.x

Tuesday, June 17, 2003
10:01 p.m.
ROFL.

YEAH, BABY. =D

AOL's a shithead. I swear I put a new layout on this pita AND archived all my entries, however, AOL is being an asshole and keeps showing my old Fly to the Sky layout. My Hye Sung layout shows up in IE so I guess AOL's just PMSing. Regardless, the layout should kick in sometimes tomorrow for the slow-assed AOL.

As for me, I'm going to bed soon.